Who is Logan?

You're reading about my life so you should at least know who you're reading about. Ofcourse Logan isn't my real name but I want to protect I write about so I have to use fake names.

Let me tell you where I am in this world right now. It'll be a little overwhelming but just hold tight and I promise I'll get you there safely:) I'm 31 years old right now. I have my own little karaoke bar that's doing okay which I took over from my parents in Guam. Lucky me:) I started a TV show that friend and I started and is just finishing up our first episode. We do the whole thing but be in it. We have cute girls as our hosts. I have a 5 song music Album I'm coming out in iTunes. Songs are finished and my producer is mastering as i write. I'm a professional photographer and have won couple awards for some of my shots. Now I get to travel back and forth Guam and southern California both Los Angeles and San Diego for photography gigs which my clients fly me out to do. I try my best to be fit so I lift weights 3 times a week and am in both kickboxing and MMA fighting class. I won a handful of medals back in high school days with 2 black belts in traditional martial arts so it's something I've done all my life.

You're still with me? I know I sound like I'm showing off but there's more. As you can see, I'm just cramming this down and leaving out the details just so you get the idea of who Logan might be.

I am an artist, traditional media and computer art and have been a graphic artist in a video game company for few years and couple other media companies. I was in the National Guard Infantry right out of high school. I have a Psychology Degree from University of Guam and Cal Poly Pomona. I've had ass load of different jobs: Constructions, dairy queen, life guard, teachers assistant, abercrombie and fitch, target, Gamesworld, Hard Rock, Continental, 42Media, Midway Home Entertainment, Bakery, Media Company and the list still continues but I'll stop right here:)

I'm very charismatic and seem to catch people's attention alot. For example just last night, I was at a bar by my self and 1 guy came up to me to hang with me all night buying me beers and total of 4 girls wanted my attention without me having to do anything. I am very friendly and I get along with almost everyone. People tell me I'm handsome almost everyday. Life is amazing and has been easy. I'm a very lucky guy.

Best of all, I have a 4 year old beautiful baby boy. The reason why I breath. My little man has Autism. I've been blessed to have lived with a roommate who's been through his Autistic boy. Through many training and leanring, his boy was able to come out of it and is now 7 with many friends, smart and can function like a normal boy. As a matter of fact if you saw my friends' boy, you can't tell he has Autism. Through this and my Pshychology background, I'm able to do everything I can to ensure that my little man is raised properly. He's been my number one goal in my life and am proud to say that we're all doing a great job at it. My relationship with my baby mama is superb and I also get along well with her boyfriend.

I'm a single dad who wants to see the world, experience the world and live like the world has no limits and I'm not going to slow down anytime soon:)

What got me started with all this women psychology, relationships and just wanting to be the best man I can possibly be?

This is very personal but I would like to share it. Maybe you can learn from it, maybe it's just entertaining but I hope there is some form of gain for sharing my life with you.

My biological mother used to get beaten up in front of my eyes every since I was born. It was always shocking to watch my mother who cared for me dearly get pummeled by my dad. I would sit in the corner and just stare while they didn't seem to mind that their kid was watching.

I always wanted to save her but what could a little boy do?

I get a step mom at age of 7 who would beat me and my little brother up and would call me either stupid, dumb or ugly. She beat me til I was 15 and I let her. All this trauma created a certain behavior towards women that I did not like. Sure we all go through bullshit in life but the deal is, can you come out of it and be better than what you're being raised to become?

So dealing with girls was extremely difficult. If you ask anybody from my high school, I was a nerd. I was lucky to have a good set of great friends so I was never bullied or not liked but I was the chess champion, comic book collecting, straight A student who couldn't get laid even if i was stranded with a horny naked girl. I've also had a personality of a low self esteem, always wanting to rescue a broken girl, sensitive, shy, always agreeing with a girl to get their approval. Everything that was wrong, I had those behaviors. It was horrible. One thing that I always did have is charisma. I was always friendly and positive, fast learner and always curious to see what the world had to offer.

So I had to go out and make accomplishments. I had to struggle and conquer to teach myself how to be a better man. We only have one life to live and there's no way I'm going down like a chump just because our parents might've not given us what we need to strive in this world. We must over come our obstacles ourselves.

Now ultimately, why do we live. I actually agree with Dr. Freud and believe we live for sex and food. If you think about it, it totally makes sense. So we become the best we can to find a mate to procreate and to eat so we can keep living. So for a man, you can see how important it is that we are successful with women. When I mean successful, I'm talking getting their attention, having them become our mates then continuing onto live our rest of our lives with each other.

I've had my share of dating experience before I knew all this but I was lucky. I didn't know what I was doing and once a long while I would get lucky and have a girl chase me. Majority of the time, it was a total failure. I thought maybe that's just how life is and was content with it until I actually fell for a certain girl. First week was amazing then she blew me off, blocked my number, deleted my myspace account, the whole works. I was considered to be 'creepy' to her and all I did was buy her a headlight that I remembered her car needed and I dropped it off at her work. It sounded to romantic but it was 'creepy'! What the fuck was going on. I'm sure there were more that I did that was wrong but I had no idea what it was. My heart was devastated. I needed to know what I was doing wrong. I need to get laid and be loved and find that soul mate we all desire.

So, like all my many other accomplishments, once I start, there is no stopping until I am 100 percent satisfied with my learning and experiencing. I have read many books, have been out in the world talking to everybody about it. Have a Psycology Degree to jump start this, dated hundreds of beautiful ladies and getting really personal with them to dig their brain. I am starving like I would die any minute from hunger and women's mind and soul is the food that can satisfy it.

Let's get some ass!

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