Who is Logan?

You're reading about my life so you should at least know who you're reading about. Ofcourse Logan isn't my real name but I want to protect I write about so I have to use fake names.

Let me tell you where I am in this world right now. It'll be a little overwhelming but just hold tight and I promise I'll get you there safely:) I'm 31 years old right now. I have my own little karaoke bar that's doing okay which I took over from my parents in Guam. Lucky me:) I started a TV show that friend and I started and is just finishing up our first episode. We do the whole thing but be in it. We have cute girls as our hosts. I have a 5 song music Album I'm coming out in iTunes. Songs are finished and my producer is mastering as i write. I'm a professional photographer and have won couple awards for some of my shots. Now I get to travel back and forth Guam and southern California both Los Angeles and San Diego for photography gigs which my clients fly me out to do. I try my best to be fit so I lift weights 3 times a week and am in both kickboxing and MMA fighting class. I won a handful of medals back in high school days with 2 black belts in traditional martial arts so it's something I've done all my life.

You're still with me? I know I sound like I'm showing off but there's more. As you can see, I'm just cramming this down and leaving out the details just so you get the idea of who Logan might be.

I am an artist, traditional media and computer art and have been a graphic artist in a video game company for few years and couple other media companies. I was in the National Guard Infantry right out of high school. I have a Psychology Degree from University of Guam and Cal Poly Pomona. I've had ass load of different jobs: Constructions, dairy queen, life guard, teachers assistant, abercrombie and fitch, target, Gamesworld, Hard Rock, Continental, 42Media, Midway Home Entertainment, Bakery, Media Company and the list still continues but I'll stop right here:)

I'm very charismatic and seem to catch people's attention alot. For example just last night, I was at a bar by my self and 1 guy came up to me to hang with me all night buying me beers and total of 4 girls wanted my attention without me having to do anything. I am very friendly and I get along with almost everyone. People tell me I'm handsome almost everyday. Life is amazing and has been easy. I'm a very lucky guy.

Best of all, I have a 4 year old beautiful baby boy. The reason why I breath. My little man has Autism. I've been blessed to have lived with a roommate who's been through his Autistic boy. Through many training and leanring, his boy was able to come out of it and is now 7 with many friends, smart and can function like a normal boy. As a matter of fact if you saw my friends' boy, you can't tell he has Autism. Through this and my Pshychology background, I'm able to do everything I can to ensure that my little man is raised properly. He's been my number one goal in my life and am proud to say that we're all doing a great job at it. My relationship with my baby mama is superb and I also get along well with her boyfriend.

I'm a single dad who wants to see the world, experience the world and live like the world has no limits and I'm not going to slow down anytime soon:)

What got me started with all this women psychology, relationships and just wanting to be the best man I can possibly be?

This is very personal but I would like to share it. Maybe you can learn from it, maybe it's just entertaining but I hope there is some form of gain for sharing my life with you.

My biological mother used to get beaten up in front of my eyes every since I was born. It was always shocking to watch my mother who cared for me dearly get pummeled by my dad. I would sit in the corner and just stare while they didn't seem to mind that their kid was watching.

I always wanted to save her but what could a little boy do?

I get a step mom at age of 7 who would beat me and my little brother up and would call me either stupid, dumb or ugly. She beat me til I was 15 and I let her. All this trauma created a certain behavior towards women that I did not like. Sure we all go through bullshit in life but the deal is, can you come out of it and be better than what you're being raised to become?

So dealing with girls was extremely difficult. If you ask anybody from my high school, I was a nerd. I was lucky to have a good set of great friends so I was never bullied or not liked but I was the chess champion, comic book collecting, straight A student who couldn't get laid even if i was stranded with a horny naked girl. I've also had a personality of a low self esteem, always wanting to rescue a broken girl, sensitive, shy, always agreeing with a girl to get their approval. Everything that was wrong, I had those behaviors. It was horrible. One thing that I always did have is charisma. I was always friendly and positive, fast learner and always curious to see what the world had to offer.

So I had to go out and make accomplishments. I had to struggle and conquer to teach myself how to be a better man. We only have one life to live and there's no way I'm going down like a chump just because our parents might've not given us what we need to strive in this world. We must over come our obstacles ourselves.

Now ultimately, why do we live. I actually agree with Dr. Freud and believe we live for sex and food. If you think about it, it totally makes sense. So we become the best we can to find a mate to procreate and to eat so we can keep living. So for a man, you can see how important it is that we are successful with women. When I mean successful, I'm talking getting their attention, having them become our mates then continuing onto live our rest of our lives with each other.

I've had my share of dating experience before I knew all this but I was lucky. I didn't know what I was doing and once a long while I would get lucky and have a girl chase me. Majority of the time, it was a total failure. I thought maybe that's just how life is and was content with it until I actually fell for a certain girl. First week was amazing then she blew me off, blocked my number, deleted my myspace account, the whole works. I was considered to be 'creepy' to her and all I did was buy her a headlight that I remembered her car needed and I dropped it off at her work. It sounded to romantic but it was 'creepy'! What the fuck was going on. I'm sure there were more that I did that was wrong but I had no idea what it was. My heart was devastated. I needed to know what I was doing wrong. I need to get laid and be loved and find that soul mate we all desire.

So, like all my many other accomplishments, once I start, there is no stopping until I am 100 percent satisfied with my learning and experiencing. I have read many books, have been out in the world talking to everybody about it. Have a Psycology Degree to jump start this, dated hundreds of beautiful ladies and getting really personal with them to dig their brain. I am starving like I would die any minute from hunger and women's mind and soul is the food that can satisfy it.

Let's get some ass!

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Self awareness, strong identity and dating drama

My single life and personality has a stronger identity now. After many experiences with both women and career, I am finally at a place where I have become very confident within myself and life's been great since then. I have met many kinds of people both men and women. I have my own bar with couple other small businesses. No, I don't make alot of money but I'm living my dreams and am my own boss. I also am dating and also lucky that at this point I have girls coming up to me and asking me out. I'm guessing that they can sense the aura of a good man. Sometimes it's overwhelming since i'll end up with 4 different dates in a week but it makes life so much more interesting. My personality is being reflected from my lifestyle. I'm not trying to be someone I'm not but now just understand how women behave.

Oh man, my single life is out of control. I'm just going to brag and let you all know that my single life is amazing. 90% of the girls that I go after reacts positively and I have my selection of what I want. I have girls from 18 to 50 years old constantly telling me how handsome and hot I am. Younger using the word hot and the older using the word handsome. I'm very picky now and don't feel that needy feeling I used to feel when I used to date one girl at a time. Funny how those people who don't even date and their excuse is that their picky. Picky form what selections? None. I am picky from the group of amazing girls that I have taken out and that's how you should be too. Truthful. If you can become the guy that every girl thinks is a great catch then you can become a good man. Not necessarily successful but ambitious and actually doing something to reach it. Confident. Fit. Having your own personality and strong identity. Not trying to agree with the girl just to please her. Leading such as picking the places to go and things to do instead of asking 'so what do you want to do'. Knowing what you want. Dressed well. Etc.

I'll tell you a recent story that I've gone through this past month that just made me feel how lucky I am but yet still experience a little unexpected drama.

I go up to this club and I see back of a girl with a short denim skirt and short hair walking up the stairs ahead of me. I already have a thing for short hair which caught my eyes but the way she was walking was what really got my attention. She was shaking her hips left and right in an exaggerated manner but in such sexy poise and gave that 'I am hot' vibe.

Who is this girl? I had to know. I go in and find my friends and it's penny a beer with a 10 dollar wrist band. We down 4 beers in a row and already buzzing fast. At this point I have a blond all over me. She's a little older than me, late 30's, but she's cute and have an amazing body and my favorite, a blond. I met her last week and we have already made out and spend some time together so she's comfortable around me and really into me. I lean back and she's all over me and my homies think I'm just looking like a stud. Haha. Fun already.

I leave my blond and walk up to the ass shaking, short hair girl.

'Before you walk pass me, I want to know your name.' I say with confidence. It's gotten to a point where you can say anything you want without any practiced liners if you show good aura and confidence. A little coaching tip. Have a good posture. Lean a little backwards to show that you can walk away anytime and don't care too much. Talk loud and a bit slower than usual like as if your words are important. Look her in her eyes.

She stops to talk to me. She is beautiful. Green eyes, short black hair, amazing body with nice size breasts and there's a friendly charm about her that brings me in closer. We exchange our numbers and myspace info and I go back to my friends.

The next evening, I get a text from 'beautiful'. She wants to go out so I pick her up at 9. I get to her place and her roommates are all looking at me and giggling and saying how I am so handsome. Flattering. I thank them for their compliment and open my car door for my date. As I drive off, I stop right outside her apartment and I grab her and kiss her. I already sensed that she was really into me since she was shaking a bit from nervousness and staring at me. I like to think I did her a favor by breaking the ice that fast so we can enjoy the rest of the night with comfort.

I don't even enjoy talking before I kiss a girl anymore. I just get real close and stare into her eyes. Wait a little so she can feel that uncomfortable uneasy feeling than I close in for the kiss. I really enjoy that since it creates this big rush for just before going in.

One of the best kiss I've ever had. Our kisses are in sync and her lips tastes like heaven. I might be exaggerating a bit but I got lost into it. Something about kissing that can tell you a story about the way you're going to feel about them. It took both of our breaths away.

So we go around all over the place, me introducing her to my friends and drinking just enough to get a small buzz. We're making out everywhere we go. Oh, did I mention that she's a stripper? She told me and made me promise not to come to her work so we don't see each other that way. So sweet. I don't mind. I like her too much to mind. I take her to my place and we get naked and do everything but fuck. She had a tampon on so there's that limit. Her body is almost perfect. I'm in love and she asks me to be exclusive fuck partners even though we haven't even fucked yet. I tell her yes. This emotion was over whelming. I felt like I was in love. Who really knows what love is anyways. She was so into me all night just staring at me into my eyes that is seems like she was in love with me as well. That alone felt so amazing but to add to the fact that she was gorgeous, amazing soft body and a great personality, this could take any guy away to lala land. Most dates we experience, there's harldy any eye contacts and is a bit of awkwardness no matter how experienced in dating you might be leading to the kiss. This date was comfortable and we were lost in each others eyes and held hands all night. Such big difference.

To speed things up, I make her my girlfriend the next day, I know that's crazy. Who does that. I've been single for over 4 years. Really? Without thinking of the outcome? She's a stripper! What would everybody in my life say? Who cares. I didn't. However, she had to leave the island within the week due to some blisters. Crazy but I told her I loved her before she left. It just felt right. She told me she couldn't say the same. That's fine, I wasn't looking for a response anyways. This short relationship was amazing.

So now I'm going on different dates. Multiple dates. I hang with different girls almost every other night but I'm not sleeping around. I just want to get to know them, kiss them and leave it at that, well sometimes it doesn't just end there:)

One night, after couple weeks of Beautiful leaving the island, I see this short brunette at a club, dressed all suave with a gangster hat so I just compliment her hat. She looks and she seems immediately interested. It's not fair to others but sometimes that's how I roll. Haha. I get her a shot and we're instantly holding each other. We're making out after 10 minutes of talking. I'm a great kisser. I've had my share of practice time. After I kiss her she'ss lean back and breath real heavy and say whoa. Her friends would come by one at a time and tell her in front of me how handsome I am. I tell them I appreciate that like I knew that already. We exchange numbers, and I went home.

I go to her work the next evening since she told me that she would love for me to surprise her at work sometimes. If she hadn't said this, i wouldn't have gone to her work. That's creepy, which I learned the hard way. Embarrassing, I know. I have visited a girl at her work with a gift before and that turned out to be 'creepy'. Who knew but now I know. Back to the story.

When I get to her work, brunette isn't there but her blond friend is. She tells me she's getting off and wants to hang with me so we hang. I take her to my bar and we drink a little and hang out. After closing, she stays behind and we spend the night there. We kissed a little and fooled around a little but not too much since she does really like her friend. She apparently really likes me as well. I know, I'm such a pimp like that:) I really am not used to this pimpness, if you will, but I am greatful and am lucky I can experience this.

The next day, brunette calls me to pick her up after work. She gets off late. I'm already hanging with my friend so I take him to pick her up. On our way out, i bring the blond friend also since they were off work the same time. Had to bring her friend for my homie ofcourse cause 'it ain't no fun if the homie's can't get none'.:)

We go to my bar after closing, I lock the door after hours and it's just us four. The brunette get instantly naked and asks me to finger her. I do so in front of my homie and the blond and give her a little lick down south. Just a little. Pretty wild in my book. I don't normally get this blunt but I've had my share of naughty experiences in the past so I can say I'm not too surprised.

We all just end up falling asleep and I take them to their cars at 9 in the morning.

I'm in Los Angeles now for a business gigs I need to take care of. I get a myspace message from my 1 week ex girlfriend, Beautiful, and this is what she writes.

"I came back to Guam and planned on surprising you in the next couple days and had been talking to 'Name' about you. But then I heard you were messing with one of my girls. So..I appreciate it so much. I thought different of you..and I really have no intentions of speaking to you or seeing you anymore. I was sick when I got home and wasn't able to communicate with anyone. You knew who she was and that's so messed up to fuck with one of my girls Logan. I don't blame her one bit, because we didn't use to talk and she didn't know who you were..she was so messed up on whatever that anything I mentioned to her, she had no idea what I was talking about and didn't remember anything I told her. But you...wtf. Good luck with things."

My heart drops. I really like this one. Heck, I was in love with her! She took my breath away when we were together and it's over as fast as it came. I call her to tell her I didn't know she was coming back this soon, that I didn't know the brunette was her friend and that I would've waited if she asked but she didn't want to hear it. She doesn't care. She's hurt. Maybe I'll just let this one go. I would fight to be with her again but I later learn that she has told another friend of hers that she had to dump me before because I was too clingy. Wow. That blew me away. No, I was hurt and upset. I call her to tell her that I'm over her since she thought i was clingy. She tells me she was sick and depressed so she blurted that out. I fell in love with the fact that I thought she was really into me but now it's all over the place and I have no facts. Regardless, I still really care for her.

I'm thinking I can put an effort into getting this one back by seeing her and just telling her how it is but maybe this is the world telling me that it's good that I am not with her and that I should move on. After all, she is a stripper...So I tell myself to create some kind of comfort for myself but deep inside, I don't care what work she has. She makes me feel things I normally don't feel.

I'm still in LA right now so we'll see what happens when I get back home next week. Also, keep in mind I have a handful of other amazing women I've already dated a few times that I have not talked about that's waiting in Guam. I'll get back to that later.

P.S. Beautiful, Brunette and I have the same birthday date. Crazy coincidence, I know!

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Pick Up Artist in the Islands

It's been a few weeks since I moved back home to Guam and being the new face around the island, I am the hot shit for the next however months. Everytime I go out it's all eyes on me. Most local people here dress in slippers and shorts while I'm peacocking with faded jeans, belt buckle, expensive shoe, accessories and a crazy hairdo.

I'm still confirming that all girls are the same around the world. I've already sarged in Costa Rica, Vegas, LA, San Diego, Hawaii and now Guam.

Bottom line fellas, you have to be confident and it needs to show. What is confidence? Maybe it's being ignorant. Personally, I don't care what they think or react on my approach. I just don't care. You have to tell yourself they are not important. Maybe it's finding your inner self and building the personal belief in yourself. Either way, you can't hesitate, you can't ask for permission and you have to lead.

The islands is a whole different game. In LA, I had sex witha girl within the first 10 minutes of sarging but in the islands, it's a bit tougher to make the panties drop. Why? Because your rep is important and there is nothing in the island to do but to bar b q, fuck and talk shit about others. I ain't complaining. It's fun.

For example. I took a girl out on a date last week and it was nice. I then took a girl out the other night and the girl number 1 found out about it the early next morning! Really?! Crazy. I really have to be careful and not get into anything serious where the woman could be hurt or cause major drama.

Remember, my whole point of understanding how women think and function is to have the best serious relationship in the end from having a girlfriend to ultimately have the amazing married life possible. But to be the best race car driver, you must test drive and practice many times.

I have two sets of friends out here and one set, they are super nice to women but are very popular. The other, they are bad boys, very aggresive and also are very popular. They both get girls but of course the bad boys get most of them. I know, it's stupid to think that you have to be bad to girls to make them like you. You should be well balanced. You don't want to be a pussy and you don't want to be a total asshole but you want to have confidence enough to stand your own grounds and opinion and know what you want.

Don't ask her is she's doing alright, let her know that you're having a fun time because your opinion is important also. It's all about framing. If you're having a good time and you're showing it, she too will have a good time from the fun energy you are producing. If I come over and put my arms around you and tell you that this place is awesome and actually mean it, you too will feel like it's a fun place. Keep that energy and put it out there for people to absorb than you'll be the leader of the pact.

Back to my journey. Getting a phone number has just become a habit now. Following through and going on dates still need perfection but I am learning. I took this girl to multiple venues and she was complying to all my demands. When I went to kiss her, I had this small speech about me kissing her to see how our energy mixed. We kissed than she told me that ladies like surprises and not to feel pressured to kiss. We all know that about girls but I wanted to test out different things to say before kissing to guarantee a success. Most guys will just lean in and try to kiss without saying anything which is what a girl wants but i think this only works when the girl is already physically attracted to you. How about the normal good guys? It has to be a psychologically attraction that makes kissing a success.

Couple good things to say for a kiss if you don't want to just lean in and have the girl be surprised and pull away:

"What grade would you give yourself as a kisser? Let's find out" then lean in.

"Would you like to kiss me?" If she says maybe than you say, "lets find out" than lean in. If she says no, than you say, "Your face expression told me you wanted something" than just lean back and continue with the conversation.

One thing you must always do is go for the kiss in the first date, always. She must know you are in it to win it:) and not to be her friend.

Don't get me wrong, I have handful of close hemale friends and they are very dear to me and are legitimately friends and not girls who I haven't fucked yet. Some I've tried and chemistry is off and some are plain cool but just don't have that chemistry.

I will write more as I adventure around here. I wouldn't be surprised if someone in guam finds this blog and figures out who is writing this. To be continued...

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A new kind of man.

It's been a while since I last wrote. I have been going out alot, still meeting many women and trying to figure out the mystery behind women. All this training, learning and going out and actually meeting woman have finally made me realize what the whole trick to being successful with women is.

I haven't wrote because every night has been the same kinds of night. Sure it's been great. Many numbers closed, some kiss closes, many attraction but it was getting really repetitive and boring. If you play the game and meet a women, it is easy to lose interest. Simply, easy come, easy go. Than again, if you don't play the game, your success rate drops. You ask every women and they will tell you to just be yourself. Such bull crap.

The strange thing is that most woman loves the same kind of guy. Smart, witty, confident, a little cocky, and very alpha. Looks can help but definitely not that important.

It's been a while and my whole personality has changed. I don't use any lines and my approach has been direct. I simply walk towards a girl with a smile and with confidence. I put my hand out and say hi, what is your name.

I've been out to bunch of clubs and bars in LA and in San Diego and if you look around, 90 percent of the guys are too scared to approach girls. They get drunk at around midnight and start using their liquid courage to talk to girls. Many times, they get too aggressive and at this point most girls have their defense up since guys are grabbing them and talking to them all aggressive. So, I like to talk to the girls before I drink and before 11pm.

My whole attitude and personality has changed. I am now really confident. Not because I think of myself of being amazing but because I don't care what they think or care about how they react. They are not important to have an affect in my life. My success rate has risen to 90%. I'm at a point now that woman approach me more than I approach them. I am very impressed by this and am entertained.

My advice, learn the game from every author you can find from Deangelo, cocky funny to Mystery, pick up artist. Use them as if it's a training wheel. Understand the psychology of woman and see what they're trying to say. Quit being so creepy. Go to a club and watch how those creepy guys approach girls and get denied right away. Don't do what they do. Be friendly to everyone in the group and not just pick one cute girl to be nice to. Have a strong sense of identity.

Okay, so this was the boring stuff. I will write more of my field report later. Happy New Years!

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